I had worked in shops where there were no windows, no sight to the outside world. You live under the spotlights where everything seems gold and beautiful. But the more I put effort into it, the more it sucked my energy away. 

Then come the holidays to recharge. This time the spotlights under which I am is flattering and pleasant and yet, I keep spending my energy. Maybe it’s a lack of time or quality to have a real good rest. 

This duo is my regret for the color that my heart saw fading away.